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Christmas fever

December 26, 2013

Girl on fire

I’m experiencing a very warm Christmas.
I’m not wining,
but today is the third day with a fever.

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I called the hospital,

and I asked whether it is normal that the fever remains at 38.5 degrees Celsius?

– No inflammation?

– I don’t think so.

– Are you warm?

– Of course, I have fever.

– Operation area, is it red?

– No.

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– It’s probably a Virus, they said.
with instructions: “Rest in peace”…

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Therefore,

my Christmas in a particularly soft and extra warm –
mostly under the blankets,

sometimes sweating.

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I feel the salt on my skin,
as if I had been swimming all day in the ocean.
The lips are dry and salty.
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I remember reading in the Bible about salt and fire.
I dragged myself to pick up the laptop and the Gospel of Mark:
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 For every one shall be salted with fire,

and every sacrifice shall be salted with salt.

Salt is good:

but if the salt have lost his saltness,

wherewith will ye season it?

Have salt in yourselves,

and have peace one with another.

Mark 9: 48-50

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My cancer is a sacrifice,

in some sense,

– at least for me.

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This trial goes through

fire and pain,

with saltiness on my lips.

I wonder: how much is enough

and how long it takes?

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I also read the words:

Consider it pure joy,

my brothers and sisters,

whenever you face trials of many kinds,

because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.

James 1:2-3

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I feel warm and limp,

I just wonder:

Isn’t this a bit rough form of joy?

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